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Sunday, July 27, 2008 |

my name is HAZIQAH not HAIZQAH

hey, i miss you too babe! and since i love you too much,
i shall post the very long post that you gave me as my "surprise"
you made me cry la bitchhhh! i love you too much.
tomorrow i'll buy you 3 heart-shaped lollipops okay?
to signify i miss you alright?? :D i love you la, crap.
so, here's your post!!!! :D i know, im a retarded ass -winks-


My best friend, Haizqah.

Haziqah's sooooo sweet. I'm so lucky to have a friend like her, serious. :D

From her blog,

i misssssssss YOU!
you refers to :
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn





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------*-----*-----*----------
-----*---zhiyin--*---------
------*-----------*----------
-------*---------*----------
--------*-------*-----------
----------*----*------------
------------**---------------

lol. cute right??
hahahaahhahahahah. i miss you bitchhh!

Link: Click here.



This post is dedicated to somebody close to me - Haziqah.
Though we had a "war" some time last year, but we both managed to clear things up and made peace. "Opposites attract." I don't see any differences between me and her, we both just had sooooo many things in common. We can talk about anything under the Sun. We used to be so close that nothing, literally nothing, could tear us apart.
Now that we're both busy with our own stuffs, we hardly have time for each other. She has band almost every day, and I'm busy with many things. We're drifting apart, right before my very eye. This is something I want to happen last. Something I thought would never happen.



I miss those times we used to spend with each other.
I miss how we used to have heart-to-heart talks at the usual hangout place at Bedok. I miss going to Bedok Reservoir to destress and throw rocks.
I miss going ASC. I miss us stupidly staying back after ASC to wait for them.
I miss how we wanted to see them soooooo much, yet running away from them when they appear.
I miss crapping around and bitching with you.
I miss doing all the stupid and retarded stuffs nobody has ever thought of.
I miss getting scolded together.
I miss sharing secrets with you.
I miss us talking about everything and nothing at all.
I miss laughing in your face.
I miss competing who burps the loudest.
I miss bitching about those bitches with you.
I miss running around the school like super retards.
I miss how we would always wink at each other with the cheeky face.
I miss us whacking each other.
I miss how we would high-five 'til our palms turned red.
I miss how we would jump around the class.
I miss how loud we would laugh in class and irritate the shit out of the people sitting around us.
I miss how stupidly we danced in Bedok Reservoir.
I miss us singing out of tune together.
I miss complaining how much we missed them.
I miss everything all the games we used to play.
I miss smsing you everyday.
I miss late night talks with you 'til early morning.
I miss going to school with you.
I miss going to school LATE with you countless of times.
I miss the way we would be able to sense if the other person is feeling down.
I miss crying together with you.
I miss how we comfort each other.
I miss how we always thought that "Everything will be alright."
I miss going out with you.
I miss us being there for each other.
I miss all the promises we made.
I miss everything about you.
I miss all the times we spend together.
I miss you sooooooooooooooooooo damn fucking much.



There's nothing to be sorry about, 'cos I know you have your own things to be busy with. I know you didn't mean to be so busy with band that you didn't spend time with me. I understand you babe. I ain't blaming you for not spending much time with me. Well, I'm sorry too, for not spending much time with you these day. I'm sorry if I made us drift apart. I didn't mean to, sorry. ):
Even if there's a wall in between us that tears us apart, I know that we can overcome it. We've gone through so many obstacles together to get to this far, I believe that we can do it again. I believe in us. (: I mean like, what's overcoming this obstacle to us when we've passed through so many?
Hey, look. Nothing have changed. Our friendship is still the same. Though we haven't been spending much time with each other now but our friendship is still going strong isn't it?


I'll be there for you. - These five words I swear to you.
I know the promise we made is still valid. We'll always be there for each other, forever and always. You're the only one who is always able to tell if I'm faking a smile or if the smile is for real. You're always there for me, through it all, through thick and thin. Whenever I need someone to talk to, you'll always lend your listening ear. You always take the time to listen to me whine and complain about everything, which 99% of them are nonsensical stuffs. Still, you're willing to lend your listening ear. Every time I cry, you'll always be there or comfort me and make sure everything is okay. You always offer me a hug whenever I needed one. I know I can always count on you. :D
Corazon a corazon. (heart to heart) I love you best friend. *jumps up and down* I promise to be there for you, I promiseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D And we'll get through this, I swear.





with even more love, HAZIQAH<3

Saturday, July 26, 2008 |

i misssssssss YOU!
you refers to :
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn
-zhiyinnnnnnnnnnnnn





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------*-----*-----*----------
-----*---zhiyin--*---------
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----------*----*------------
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lol. cute right??
hahahaahhahahahah. i miss you bitchhh!



hey you. i dont know if you realise this but all that i said, were lies.
i hope you know that i oly used those words to get over ***.
i have a feeling something good(to me) will happen. i dontknow.
or is it just my high hopes? hopes to get what i want?
oh crap. i cant go on. hey you, just hearing your voice will
comfort my lost heart. i miss you. i dont know why, i just do.

Thursday, July 24, 2008 |

WHAT THE FUCKKK!!
long time never blog sial!
miss me? miss me? :D
haha, lol. no mood laaa... like im so eff-ing
stressed these days. i dont know why.

dont tell me you dont notice it.
we're drifting further and further
apart. i missed those days that we normally
hang out after our asc then wait like some
idiotic people and waait for them.
i miss us running away when we see them.
i really do. im sorry, for not hanging out much with you.
im sorry ive been too busy these days.
i dont know why but i think there is a wall in between,
not letting us get back to our past.
i really miss you, friend, i do.
i really hope we can get back to our past.
i know things are different, but i dont care.
i want to relive the past we used to have.
the times we spent at bedok reservoir,
our usual hangout in bdk inter. all of that.
i really miss the past. im sorry i couldnt spend much time with you these days.
you see, we dont talk that much anymore. everything's just too different.



kay, i know that its not graduation yet, still.
i feel like singing this song. i want our friendship ties to still be there
even though we will most probably go to different class.
oh fuck. im gonna cry soon. lol, kay. btw im in comp lab 2 now^^
maths period but mdm goo nvr cme so we do finish the wrksheet
then can do our own stuffs.. :D :D :D :D bye!

Monday, July 21, 2008 |

my mom found an MP4 -.-
lol?? like the english sng all old old songs la wth-.-.-
mainly simple plan songs, westlife songs and from music and lyrics.
and super a lot of chinese songs. lol??
Tampines sec people gave my mom a hard time in the library-.-
my mom say they run around in the library, eat, drink, on music loud2
all the things no TK student would imagine doing in the library.
like seriously sia! my mom very tired already orh.
luckily got my cousin to accompany her in th library.
my cousin very good good one la. my mom say she everyday borrow
i think about 3 books like that. pro sia. i borrow one book also lazy read-.-
oh, which reminds me, i havent return!! lol! haha.
kay, today school was blah, asc i turned into a popsicle because
with the freaking cold weather outside plus the aircon in the library
and the aircon inside the mrl, i died. lol. like wth. in the mrl got 6 aircon above my head and
2 which were not on-ed on the wall. like i forgot to bring my cardigan!!
cardigans or jacket wont work, anyways, so no difference. kay, bye!


Sunday, July 20, 2008 |

hello. just came back from open house at my cousins new house.
her room is super nice i tell you!!!
ah, whatever. i hate you, bitch.
lala, im bored. i dont even know who the bitch is, by the way. lol?
kay bye. my fucked up sis wants to use the comp now. crap her!
lala, bye.

Saturday, July 19, 2008 |

boreddddd! lala, no mood to blog.
i suddenly feel like crying so, bye.

bleagh. i miss everyone.
a lot of people. i think your one of them.



Thursday, July 17, 2008 |

i love this song. its super nice.


this is me by skye sweetnam.



lyrics
(Verse 1)
Always been the kind of girl that hid my face
So afraid to tell the world what I've got to say
But I have this dream bright inside of me
I'm gonna let it show
It's time
To let you know, to let you know

(Chorus)
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

(Verse 2)
Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark?
To dream about a life where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

(Chorus)
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me

(Verse 3)
Joe:
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you

Demi & Joe:
I gotta find you
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be

(This is me) You're the missing piece I need the song inside of me
(This is me) You're the voice I hear inside my head
(Yeah) The reason that I'm singing

Joe & Demi:
Now I've found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me



so anyways, today very tiring but somehow, fun.
nothing much though. haha. i really want to go watch sunset!!
someone go with me.. :'( SCANDAL! i know you wanna go, right??
so whennn?? i know!! september holiday we go girls day-night out okay??
haha, lol. kay, nothing to blog so, byebye!!!! :D


Wednesday, July 16, 2008 |

hello. i need to cry. i want to cry. im going to cry.
but those tears just cannot flow. i dont know why.
tell my why i keep lying to myself of my own feelings?
why do i keep doing that? i just hate those lies.
because of them, im freaking suffering. i miss you.
i really do but i just cant tell you.i really do.
i hate myself. i hate myself.
i thought i could do it; forget you and move on.
but i dont know why i cant.

anyways, these two songs ar currently stuck in my head(since morning)






(ignore the foreign language at the starting)
(okay, the PCD vid is a bit obscene so, yeah. ignre it ^^)

is this like.. a clue to my mystery??
i dont know. haiss.. im just too confused to think. so, bye!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008 |

oh my godd!!! so long never blog sial!
haissss...

sunday
boring!! actually, more like dont remember anything.
lol. had madrasah. hehe.. i love the ustad laa!! he super funny can??
he brings life to the classroom. sadly, his period is the last one-.-
haha.. and are thy trying to get us fat?? is like almost all the teachers offered us
food laa-.- i think they are leftovers after the sec 3(??) parent teacher meeting.

monday
after scool was fun fun fun!!
hahahahaa... had history with MS KAM!! muahaha.
took photos of herrrr.. planned to post them but then dun wannn.. ^^
she teach me until i understandddddddd the WHOLE of chpt 8!!!!

today
crap la! no one told me need to bring the band uniform lorrrr!!
idiot siaaaaa! dont they know how to forward?? so wth-.-
so weirdddd... after asc went to pp (coz gt no bnd)
look for someones present-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-... andandand
MY SISTER WENT MISSINGGGGGGG!! for awhile.
my mom suddenly call me say my sis still nt hme frm tkg for hr o level listening!
i went back to tkg you know!! halfway to tkg, my mom called and guess what?
my mom called to say..... MY SIS WENT FOR TUITION!!!!!!
like what the hell?? i cried in the bus la , fuck.
so yidi yada went back home. then FORCED my sis to say sorry for losing her phone^^
but didnt tell her i cried0.o .. haha... only my mom knows. haha...



and you, bitch. i dont believe i used to think you were my best friend.
hello? im so pissed off at you and your bitchy, slutty, flirty, (dunno what)
behaviour la can?? i dont believe you siaaa!! all your lies and words you say.
you want everyone to love you, right? okay, next time ill macmake you with the pigs. wait, the pigs are just too good for you. you desreve to b with the rubbish dump. i really hate you now. cant you see your ugly behaviour????????

Saturday, July 12, 2008 |

oh, fuck. i cant believe im postig at this time in the morning!!
haiss... i still wanna sleep but my freaking body is hyper!!
not in a sick way, mind. oh, did i say that 2 days ago,
i was frying french fries (yummy!)then the hot oil
splashed onto my left index finger -.- then got some kind of
bubble (??) i think something like a blister uh. freaking ugly can?
its like one huge (dunno what colour) patch on my finger!!
then my eyes still not healing!! i want it to be like last time,
normal sized and white . its like, wherever i go people stare-.-
and can stop asking what happened to my eye ?? the doctor didnt tell me laa!
he only tell my to put those two freaking eyedrops okay??
alalalalalalalaaaaalalalalalalalalalalalallalalalalala!!!!
hahahaha, im hyper like fuck sialll!! someone go online, pretty please ^^
i dont eff-ing care that you read my blog.
cause, idk [:
i want to watch the sunset with scandal#1 !!
zhiyin, i want to watch sunset with you!!
i miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
suddenly, i feel like a lesbian (which im not).



oh please, if youre trying to make me jealous of you and her, trust me,
ITS NT WORKING. so you can just stop trying okay??
i never thought that you are such an idiotic person. like seriously,
you treat others like dirt, dont even care about their feelings
and you expect them to love you. i know i made a mistake last time
but im not going to keep making it anymore. so, goodbye my friend.

hello people!! lala,
2 more weeksssssss!! i wanna die alr.
im freakingg scaredddd!!! i seriously want to watch the sunset, please.
i wanna watch it with you *wink wink* -stares at zy-
hehe!!!! i love my 3 scandals and jie jie to theeeeee MAXXXXXX!!
bb ^^

Wednesday, July 9, 2008 | alaala *gulps*

and what was that for?? its fucking embarassing laaaa!!!
i hate youuuuu... *hmph* =P


ala. long time nvr post.
ooohhhhh. i want to watch the sunset at bedok reservoir!!
*winks to scandal* ok ok?? heheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


i dont know. im confused. sometimes
feel like its fun missing you.
but mostly, i think its pain to keep loving you.

its like, you those things bout your own gf,
then claim that you dont mean any of it?
what the hell is going through your head, idk.

i think your crazy. i have a feeling that you take this
whole bloody thing as a game. seriously, haiss...
whatver the outcome is, i know im not gg to let myself
fall into this lame shit trap you've made.


the sunset is mine ! haha. i mean i want to watch it !!


Monday, July 7, 2008 |

i must have been a fool back then to have
fallen for you. i never thought that you were
so...
i dont know what to say. you try to get my hopes high so that
i will get even more heartbroken when i knew the truth.
heck, i dont give a damn. im not a despo kayy.
go do whatever you want, i dont give a damn.
she doesnt even care about you when she is with her friends.
i saw you walking behind them, looking so -
whatever. i hope you made the right choice. i lovehate you.


alalaala.
today was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!
haha. collected bag, went to the press conference thing but left halfway coz needed to do something.
ahaha. pc is lotsa funnnn , mind im crazy.
i have no effing idea what im talking about. so yeahhhh!!!

Saturday, July 5, 2008 |

Use the first letter of your first name to answer each of the following. They have to be real places, names, things - nothing made up. You cannot use your own name for the boy/girl names.

1. Your name:
Haziqah

2. A 4 letter word:
hate

3. A vehicle:
honda civic ^^

4. A boy’s name:
Hamzah (my cuz)

5. A girl’s name:
Haziqah?

6. An occupation:
happy-go-lucky idiot (:

7. Something you wear:
hat

8. A celebrity:
Hrithik Roshan(hindi film star)

9. Something found in a bathroom:
hair that just dropped from your head

10. Reason for being late:
heh^^ i overslept

11. Something you shout:
Hahahahahaha!!!

12. A body part:
Head

13. Word to describe yourself:
Hppy-go-lucky [:

hello people!!
haha. loser.
today came at 8 for sectionals^^
then went for lunch at 10
luckily not late heh[:
yidiyada then end of band!! haha. went to alfiah
to eat with mommy and aunts and nephew [:
the food wasnt nice tho. their standard dropped..
haha. whateverr


i dont know why but i miss you too much.
i relly want to talk to you.
i dont know why or about what.
i just have a feeling i need to talk to you.
is it to clear things up??
i really do not know what to do right know.
should i believe what you said to **
or should i just take it as a trap you want me to fall into??
im seriously confused.

Thursday, July 3, 2008 |

HAPPY
BIRTDAY UMI
DARLINGGG!!!!! <3
love you mummy happy 21st 46th BIRTDAY!!

haha. muackkksssss!!!


yesterday


cant remember anything fun. lol. haha.
i dont drink mercury laaa !!! (inside joke)
after school ate then went off to library to wait for
MS KAM !!! <3<3<3
haha. looked around the school with
her and zhiyin to look for people to interview.
search failed-.- then slacked behind lib.
we were talking about ways for me &zy
to remember the facts. i kept laughing
for god knows what reason and then ms kam covered her face with
the history book because she thought that i was
laughing because of her-.-
i pulled the book down but she kept putting it up again!!
haiss... she really very fun lorrhh!! better than (insertnamehere)
she talk one time i understand. (insertnamehere) talk millions of
times also i wont understand.
omgomgomg... i kept looking at somewhere to look at someone
while she was talking. i was listening only tht my eyes wander off
on its ownnn... ^^ haha. i want her for our history teacher laa wth!!
if she is hor, i tell you i pass with flying colours siaaa!
lets all pray she will take us for the boring history subjects
so that it wont be boring and i will actually pay attention.

ohohoh. she relief-ed ** class la. when she said it hor,
me and zy stopped discussing and stares at her
with the "did you just say thattttt face"
we were literally "flying" towards her with the i love youuuuu
motion -.- lalaaaaa. i misss heerrrrrr


today
i want every morning to be like today laaa...
came late also not caught. then got another reason too **lala
oh, guess what?? i wore a freaking
size 20 blouse la when i should be wearing 16-.-
it was my sis one then in the morning i just anyhow take and
wear and forgot that the maid put my sis one into my wardrobe-.-
clever right?? that made me wear my cardigan for practically the whole day
including recess coz i didnt want to look weird in the supersized blouse-.-
haha... anyways nothing sooo interesting today la sooo,
bye bye!! once again, i love you mummy and happy birthdayy!!!

i really need to talk to you. dont ask me why, i just have a feeling
i need to. to clear things up. im really confused about my feelings.
i only need to talk o you. for once before i ***




Tuesday, July 1, 2008 |

hello people!
hahah. i am superrr high today!!
dnt was okayy.. i lost my bear's headddd!!!
i was rushing to do it laa
then i cut already put it aside
then did the hook thing.
i cut the hook then cant find the head!!!
like what the helllll!! haiss...
recess nothing much.
historyyy!!! hahah
mariam spelled something out in jawi.
i didnt hear her then was like "hah??"
then she said "haha, i talk in jawi you dont understand."
i was like, "i got 50/50 for my jawi
exam last year la what the hell -.- "
like what the hell-.-
haha. english nothing much.
CE was soo loser.must connect with you partner
then mine was some weirdo.
supposed to stare at each other
then he stare at the floor.-.-
then must walk towards each
other exactly the same timing and moves.
when teacher not looking we walk but totally diff. ^^
haha. cheaterrrr
lol. after that i rushed all the way to pp
to take passport size photo.
ate chocolate eclair pretzel from auntie annes drank bubble tea
while waiting for photo.
then went back to school. late for band though..
only 10 min only laa.
and i forgot to bring the damn belt la.
glove i brought one side.
pro to the max right?? haha.
ZHIYIN WAS SUPPOSED TO PICK ME UP!!
but she didnt. said she wanted to sleepppp.
bitch siaaa! she called me then
we talked all the way till i reached home.
haha. ttalking to her on msn noww...
haha. i talk so much alredy.
kay nevermindd. bye!!



i dont know why i miss you. i know i dont like you anymore but im still missing your smile. its all i need to make my day. i dont care if you hate me or whatever. i only what you to know that i love you but i hate you. im confused so please. i hope you understand.